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07:07pm 19/02/2006
  So i joined my space. My cousin kept bugging me about it. But it's awesome cause she's my only friend. I love life.  
     

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11:08am 15/02/2006
  blah blah blah.
I'm tired.
but i probally won't go back to bed.
Me and Shane are moving into a new apartment in a month and a half.
I can't wait to get out of this shit hole.
If we get into this new place it's a thousand times nicer then this ghetto ass place we live in now.
Not to mention my apartment is haunted.
It's my day off and i really don't want to sit around.
Shane said something about maybe going to a movie.
But i have to wait til he gets out of school.
But it all depends on what time cause i'm going out to dinner with sarah tonight.
It's nice out today maybe i'll go for a walk.
Well i haven't updated in a gazillion years.
I guess i'm just really bored.
I hope you all are doing well.
 
     

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09:11pm 26/01/2006
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10:44pm 26/10/2005
  Hmm just a quick update....
I dyed my hair black today.
I can't wait for our super huge halloween bash on saturday.
I'm glad i have friday off.
O and last week someone busted in a window in our apartment and robbed us while we were at work.
But they only stole all of my shit.
And it really sucked and the cops came and pretty much told me i'll probally never see it again.
 
     

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05:51am 29/09/2005
  Blah i'm mother fucking exhausted.
I thought i was doing good by not going out with everyone last night.
And going to bed at 11.
But when they all came back at a little after 12.
Shane came back to say goodnight with me.
And for the next 45 min i had like 5 or 6 different people coming in and out of my room telling me they loved me.
It was nice don't get me wrong.
But the hour and a half of sleep i lost in the process is not.

O yeah and after two years i finally made it to the dentist.
I'm getting my rotten tooth pulled tomorrow.
 
     

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09:06pm 19/09/2005
  Dude i'm totally seeing Paul McCartney tomorrow in concert.
I'm so frickin excited.
I can die a happy person knowing that i got to see the last two living beatles live for at least once in my life.
Tomorrow is gonna be a stressful day though.
I'm really tired.
I slept all day yesterday so when i finally went to bed last night i only got like less then two hours of sleep.
I also got pulled over today.
It really fucking scared the shit out of me.
But it's ok cause i didn't get a ticket cause the dmv just gave me a white 2006 sticker.
I don't know why cause everyone elses is yellow.
So he thought my tag was expired cause the 2005 stickers are white.
It's the second time thats happened.
It's funny when a cop pulls you over and then apologizes for wasting your time.
I got my hair cut today.
It was getting to long it made my hair heavy so i couldn't style it.
Me and my daddy went and ate at pure.
We sat in shane's section.
I don't ever get to see that guy anymore.
He works all the fucking time.
We hang out like for thirty mins if that before i have to go to bed.
It's good for him though he's making money.
I don't know maybe i'm lame but i miss him alot.
I haven't been very happy lately.
I wish i knew what my problem was.
I've just got a lot of things running through my head.
It's not only putting alot of stress on me.
But on someone in particular who doesn't need any extra added stress.
And i know that and it makes me feel pretty damn shitty.
Which obviously doesn't do anything but put me more worse off then i was before.
I just i wish i knew what to do to fix everything.
So i could make everyone happy, maybe even myself.
 
     

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04:17am 17/09/2005
  My little sister is over for the weekend.
I'm essited.
I love her she's my fucking little of joy.
Every time i see her it blows my fucking mind how fucking big she's gotten.
I still think of her when she was like three and cute as fuck with her little curls.
And how everyone like wanted to fucking hold her.
So she could like barley walk well til she was like three.
Cause she would walk up and look at you and say shit like "I want to hold you"
You could never say no.
Now she's like 14, has her first boyfriend and got her first kiss today.
Awww.
 
     

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11:57am 03/09/2005
  I have my internet back.
not that any of you even noticed that i haven't updated in over two weeks.
so i guess it's really not that big of a deal then huh?
 
     

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10:06pm 19/08/2005
  Note to self-- when your packing up your apartment and your moving tonight. Don't start to watch the real world. I happened to pick on the episode i never saw. And danny's mom died so i've been sitting on the floor fucking bawling for like the last like thirty minutes. Way to go Heather.  
     

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11:52am 17/08/2005
 
mood: busy
Blah blah blah. I have so much to do. But i feel so lazy. I'm moving in like three days. I really dread packing up all my shit again. Will and his ex-fiance Liz are getting back together. She's moving back here from NC. They want to live alone. So we did a transfer of responsibility. And there moving in to my place. And i'm taking his old room and shane's apartment. She'll be here today. So were planning on moving this weekend. Ugh i'm gonna be busy. I guess i should start packing. peace.
 
     

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11:09am 05/08/2005
 
mood: upset.
This aparment complex is fucking bull shit. I was so upset at work, and since we were overstaffed, heidi let me go home so i could take cause of all this shit. I can't even stand to be here right now. I think i'm gonna go over to shanes and spend time with the kitties. He's at work. But i just don't want to be here.
 
     

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06:25pm 02/08/2005
  this fucking blows.  
     

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09:37pm 01/08/2005
  Happy 20th Birthday Erika Parkinson  
     

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09:58am 31/07/2005
  Yesterday morning i left shane's about ten, went to do some stuff with my dad and got home about 11:30 and since i haden't gone to bed yet i went straight to my room and went to sleep. I can't believe i just fucking slept for 23 hours. I woke up about 5 when shane stopped by between shifts just to say hi. He just sat on the edge of my bed for like 10 mins and we talked. I fell back asleep right after he left. Then will called me about midnight to see what me and shane were doing. I told him shane went out to some sleep over thing a bunch of people from his work were doing. So will invited me out to karoke but i told him i was just gonna stay home. and i didn't wake up til 9 this morning. And i still feel tired. It's only cause i've gotten WAY to much sleep. The funny thing this is my hororscope from yesterday.----

July 30, 2005

It's time for you to take some time off from the world -- and you're definitely ready for it. Turn off the phone, the beeper, your email and anything else that might interrupt your privacy.
 
     

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12:09pm 19/07/2005
 
mood: optimistic
Days off from work are always nice until you get your pay check. It probally would be smarter for me to be looking at job listings instead of updating my journal. I hate that my income is based on how many old people sign up for a screening. I most likely going to have friday off to. Whooo i'll be broke as a joke. and it's not even funny.

Yesterday me and shane went and washed his car at the little car wash place. It takes him forever. My legs were killing me after a while but it was fun. I bought a fanta and danced and sang with it for him. But he didn't like it cause he thought the fanta was for him and he doesn't like them. We went and ate cici's pizza for dinner. Then went and picked up my car from my dads and then went back to shanes, i fell asleep sometime in the process of him cleaning his room.

I don't know what the two of us are doing today. I said we should go on a picnic. He looked at me like i was stupid and asked if people if went on picnics anymore. I said i don't know but maybe yoogie the bear will try to steal our a-pic-a-nic basket. And now i'm i'm an official two on the fag meter for making that comment. Well i thought it was funny. Tomorrow were going over to his parents for dinner cause his dads birthday is this week. That should be fun i always have a good time over there.

I e-mailed GA perimeter college the other day with some questions. i'm looking at my options of staying here and not going to school in KY. I don't know if i can leave.

But anyways i'm gonna go. i'll catch you fucks later.
 
     

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01:21pm 17/07/2005
  Blah blah blah.
I can't get this out of my head.
I don't know what to do.
Should i stay or should i go.
Everytime i think of leaving i start to cry.
I honestly don't know if i'd make it.
 
     

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05:43am 15/07/2005
 
mood: contemplative
I've decided i'm going to go back to school.
I'm going to get a degree.
I want to be an elementary school teacher.
My plan was going to be taking online and night courses at a community college for a few years.
And then switching over to a university and taking the rest.
Again at night while still working full time as an MA.
I figured it might take me like freaking 8 years but at least i'll have a degree.
I talked to my grandma in Ky last night.
She said that she thinks me getting my degree as a teacher is a GREAT idea.
And then she made an offer...
I could go move in with them and go to school full time rent free.
Have a part time job for running money.
But i'd be done in 4 years and not 8.
It's a hard decision.
Shane said he thinks i really should do it.
He said he thinks i need to get away for a little while anyways.
He said 4 years will be over before i know it.
He said he'll miss me and we can visit each other.
He said he doesn't understand why it's such a hard decision.
The thought of leaving is hard.
He's my best friend.
At this time in my life he's the one who i'm closest to.
We hardly spend a day apart.
I would hate my life without that.
But then again.
I would be stupid to pass up the opportunity.
I just have a lot to think about.
 
     

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09:55pm 13/07/2005
 
mood: okay
Blah. I'm sleepy. I had to go to north carolina yesterday. We were up in the mountains and no one got service on there cell phones. Shane called me when we had just gotten our rooms. And it wouldn't pick up. I asked the lady at the front desk if they had cingular in that area she said not very good and that you could sometimes get it outside of the building. So i was running around the parking lot trying to talk to shane but it kept cutting up. It was actually kind of funny. The hotel was a sleep inn and it wasen't very nice. My bed was at a slant and the comforter was like made of viynl it was very very uncomfortable. And my back hurt when i woke up this morning. We only had a half day today which was nice cause i hate full days up there and not getting back til 8 at night. We had a good talk in the car on the way home and i have a lot of thinking to do. Victoria is actually a pretty cool lady i like her. I don't know what i was so scared of but she's pretty laid back and i did one thing she didn't really like and she just came up to me really nicely and asked that i don't do it again. But it ends up she's not even going to get our team so i guess it doesn't matter we only have her for two weeks. Right now i'm sitting here wait for mister shamus to give me a ring and i'm supposed to be going over there tonight, i think were gonna watch million dollar baby. I hope he calls me soon though cause it's getting late, and i need to go to bed here in a while.
 
     

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04:04pm 11/07/2005
 
mood: sleepy
I haven't done one of these long boring shits in a while...Collapse )
 
     

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05:46am 09/07/2005
 
mood: about to fall over dead
I am so freaking sleepy. I don't even know how i'm gonna make it through this whole day. I have to work today. Good old lifeline says, If you have monday off for a holiday, you automatically have to work on saturday cause were getting five days out of you no matter what. Thanks pals.
 
     

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